You've been through so much - just focus on your sobriety right now. Baby steps. The rest will sort itself out. I spent the first couple days in bed (like I would do if I had the flu), and stayed logged in here...... take it an hour or a minute at a time. It will get better. (Just don't mess around if you need a doctor's help to detox).....
Sending prayers and hugs - and a thumbs up for what you're doing - You deserve it!:ghug3