I want to say thanks to each one of you who has replied --
PaleMale, Aussieblue, Kjell, Viciouscycle, Lexiecat, LaFemme, Recycle, Fandy, Readyandable and of course our awesome moderators Anna and Dee.
Thank you for being here for me in one of my worst moments. For now I know I am not alone. I resisted to urge to drink today. I have paced the floors, logged on and off SR trying to decide what to do and have slowly moved from despair to a ray of hope.
With your help, the choice I'm making is to reach out further and get to an AA meeting tomorrow. I rode out the storm and refused to drink and in the process not give up on me today.