The worst kind of hitting bottom
Once again I'm reaching out.
I have continued to struggle with my binge drinking. A few years ago I was sober for about 6 months -- thanks to the support and guidance I received here at SR -- but I blew it and returned to my old ways.
Now, I realize I desperately need help (and yes, AA). The problem is, right now I'm so down I don't have the energy to leave my house. I'm scared. I'm fighting suicidal thoughts.
I'm truly alone. My job has been eliminated. My husband has abandoned me emotionally. My mom just died a month ago. I'm empty. Alone. And untrusting right now. In the past, I've always had hope. But I can't find any right now. This is the best I could do reaching out.
Alcohol is annihilating me.