Please try again with a therapist...shop around.
Meds will not work properly when relapsing. I hope you are discussing this with your doctor.
When my meds aren't working it's danger time. I know that I need to get a change in dose of meds when this happens...and actually I'm letting my doctor know tomorrow morning that it's not working as well as it has been and I need a boost.
I have therapy later this week as well...I'd be lost without it.
When it comes to the f-its, I wait them out. I do not drink. It's not an option. If I should relapse, I would be throwing my much needed treatment for depression down the tubes.
Hope you can find the professional medical help you need. Take care.