ru12 - Keep in mind that although reading is a good thing. Anything to futher educate yourself certainly cannot hurt. But just reading is not going to "solve" anything nor is "just not drinking".
It's the "action" you take and changes that you make that move a person forward. You cannot just read about recovery you have to participate in it.
Keep posting and if yourself is telling you AA seems like a good idea. Listen to yourself and at least attend one meeting. Mark my words - YOU WILL NOT BE SORRY!