True..very true. You will learn what you need to learn when you need to learn it! I agree..I haven't kept up with this thread. Took the time today to re-read and get caught up. I think you may need to go through it to get to the other side and finally "get it"...My worry is that you know you have a problem. You reach out then yank your hand back. I know every one learns in their own time. I just don't want to see another catastophic event happen. DUI..or the latest classic death of a friend. Passed out and choked on his vomit.
Please keep posting.