The whole time that everything last year
that's so wonderful happened for me -
I kept waiting for 'it' to fall apart
and just be another illusion.
I had this suspicion in the back of my mind
that 'it' was just setting me up
for the most collosal (colassal?) HUMUNNGUS
disappointment yet.
SO yes it's 'normal' in it's odd damaged but repairing way.