Inafishbowl

I am a periodic, but psychotically binge drinker. The last drunk I had, I totaled my car and ended up in jail for beating my husband. My neighbors thought I was on PCP or something. This was all in a black out. I remember zippo.

This morning I was at a meeting and sharing my story. A woman shared with me that her last drunk, she blacked out as well. She has zero recollection of writing a suicide note and loading a gun. She passed out before she did anything. I hope I am not breaking an anonymity rule by sharing this. But today I needed to hear it and I think it's important to share. Very true, you might not have woken up. But other horrible things could have happened too.

I loved how you started your post. Because I wrote one that started almost word for word like this one. I am sorry for what happened, but perhaps it was a gift of a bottom. I'm doing my best to see my last drunk as a gift of a bottom where nobody died and it didn't end up worse.

Much support here for you! Thank you for sharing.