Well you tried to reach out. You got shot down..for now. Perhaps in time she will see she is not dealing with the same person. And if she is still drinking maybe it will never be patched up. Drinking brought me to some really dark places. I didn't realize until I had some sober time that some of the things that haunt me are not as exaggerated as they were in my drunken stooper. I think while drinking I really dwelled on situations and couldn't get passed the wrongs that had been done to me. Until I cleared the fog..I couldn't see what part I played in the situation. Give it some time. As others have said..actions speak louder than words. I hope you can find some peace. I have had some toxic relationships that will not be fixed. But at least I have the clarity now to know what I want in my life..and what I have to let go of. I wish you the best.