Hey Manz - Great post........ - I didn't know how to be my own best friend either. After losing a job, anyone would tend to feel depressed I think - and you're getting sober on top of that. WOW - seems to me you have a lot to be proud of.
I didn't know if I could get me back either. Hel!, I forgot there was a "me" in there to begin with.......
It keeps getting better so hang in there. Some days I wanted to crawl in a hole with all the stuff I had to deal with, but then I'd have a stretch of days where things would go great and I would be so thankful I didn't drink on those bad days.
Use that wonderful insight you had and give yourself some TLC...... :ghug3