I was a deadline and timetables person too - it was very hard for me to accept that I had a condition I could never, and would never, control...at least not in the sense of making it do what I wanted.
Living a day at a time was hard for me to grasp, but it helped me let go of the reins a little in all areas of my life - I think I'm a better person for it, and I know my life is better.
You're right in one way - there's no end...I believe there's no way to go back to drinking and have a different outcome - so, yeah, there's no cure.
But I
have changed in recovery - I've become a better person than I used to be, and the fact that I'm a non drinker is a plus, not a minus now.
It's not something I chafe against now, it's something I very much want in my life.
The struggle is over
I hope you can get there soon too B
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