Going to detox for benzos...scared to death.
I have been on xanax for over 15 years now and take anywhere from 8-10 mgs a day, sometimes more, and mix them with alcohol on a fairly regular basis.
I have been to detox once before, but I moved to a new state shortly after and upon seeing my medical history my new doctor asked me if I wanted to continue on the xanax. The addict in me immediately said yes and took the script and I am now way worse off than I was prior to my original short and sweet detox stint. I had only been clean a couple weeks prior to relapsing.
So now I am scared. I am taking more xanax than I am prescribed and drinking more each day, and I only have until Monday (which is when I check into detox) to get to. I basically have no emotional support and am not quite sure how to get through the weekend, etc...
Does anyone have any experiences with detox, benzos/alcohol or otherwise; how you handled the days leading up to getting there and any non-relapse success stories, as that is my biggest fear.