i understand your struggle about what to do - i too struggled - i look back now after 9 years and wonder what i could have done differently - i could have put my son out and that may have made a huge difference but then again who knows? - i do believe now that taking a real strong stand and sticking with it is a good thing to do - i am so sorry you are having to deal with this - take heart and continue to not only talk to God but listen to Him as well - study how He loves His people - that brought a lot of comfort to me - blessings - you and your son are in my prayers