My ADP knows I am looking for a place, says he doesn't want me to go. Says he loves me and will miss me, but that I need to learn 'acceptance'...meaning I have to accept that he is a drunk. Meaning, too, I have to learn that I will spend what's left of my life watching him dozing off on the couch with his bottle tucked under a cushion, and me watching my life circling the drain and waiting for another verbal attack that he wont remember in an hour.
Knowing that I will not put myself in a position of taking a vacation in which he will be drinking heavily the whole time, or doing anything fun because he is always buzzed.
I have even considered starting to drink myself (mostly pretending) to give him a taste of what it's like to be around a nasty @ss drunk, or just stop taking care of myself and getting fatter'n hell and let him accept that.
Good luck with your escape, LS2. I hope you make it and don't let him get in your way. ♥