Ever gone through a stack of letters and relived your worst moments
I was cleaning my room and got two a couple of bins that have been closed since the worst days of my drinking. Some of it is too personal for me to post even anonymously.. But among the wreckage.. numerous letters from my mom just hoping that I would get better and get on the right track in life. Also letters I saved from an old employer that I grew to hate, numerous ones saying what a good job I was doing (before a combination of my drinking and their slave driving took their toll.. i'd say it was 50 / 50). The cherry was finding a domestic violence order against someone I was dating a few years back, stuck to a letter I had hand written explaining I would terminate my relationship with this person if they went back to using narcotics, lied to me or abused me. My life was definitely unmanageable. I feel both moronic for going through all this and putting my family through so much, and elated that I have a grip on how things were and how good they can be now.