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Old 02-20-2011, 06:48 PM
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FrothyJay
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The most important word, I think, in the AA textbook is "suddenly."

In "More About Alcoholism," on page 36, they say

"Suddenly the thought crossed my mind that if I were to put an ounce of whiskey in my milk it couldn't hurt me on a full stomach."

My understanding of this is that I should not be surprised when "suddenly" happens to me. I'm actually being warned that I am defenseless against the first drink-- that regardless of how much time I have since my last drink, if I am an untreated alcoholic, I will be plagued by moments of insanity where a thought crosses my mind that is utterly insane, but I will be unable to process it as such because I have a mental obsession.

So I do not believe in triggers-- I believe I have a permanent condition that requires a permanent solution. When I disrespect that disease by thinking it is occasion-based-- that there are predictable moments of weakness-- I am focusing my attention on the symptom and not the cause.

I have to treat the cause.
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