Thinking of you Lushly. So many of us understand and at the same time so many of us have been able to get sober and get into recovery.
I believe and that my friend is what helped me toss the bottle. You have the support tools and you must use them.
For me.....well I had no choice. I couldn't take another day living the way I was so I reached out here and in my real life and gave my recovery 100%.
Keep sharing and go at this with everything you got. I found reading through the recovery story board here to really help when I had trouble sleeping or when I felt down. You can do this.
I am grateful every single day for my life now.