Lushly, I am sorry you feel so low. It's amazing what this disease will do to us. Please don't give up. This disease is relentless and you must never give up.
I don't think a time limit will help either. Talking to your dr is a good place to start and then don't drink. It's hard and yet, oh so simple. Drinking as you are is exhausting. Stopping drinking will be a relief.