Thanks for the kind words.
I don't know but her (the ex-friend) telling everyone that I am "faking" my alcoholism somehow made it ok to get drunk. I mean, it's NOT ok, but in my warped mind at the moment it was. Now I wonder if people will doubt me. Think I am just trying to get attention. But also, most people did not even know I was a recovering alcoholic but now thanks to her they all do. Or they think I'm faking being a recovering alcoholic for attention. Or whatever. I don't know. It's so bizarre. I hate being associated with drama and I am afraid people are going to associate me with it now.