Maybe I'm being overly optimistic and some might even consider it playing with fire, but the realization itself that I was somewhat brainwashed to react to a thought unconsciously, and now I know what caused these feelings and cravings, I feel like the trance has been lifted, so the mental obsession of wanting the first drink to begin with is gone, (it was just a trick and I figured it out). The fact that I know I have an "alcohol allergy", or the "alcohol gene" that makes it so once alcohol is in my system I will never really be satiated is enough for me not to grab the first one again. The word "cured" comes to mind, but I obviously won't be flippant about it or lazy when it comes to my mindset or the upkeep of my program, because I still don't know what the future holds. But I do feel very secure in the fact that I don't want to drink ever again. But I have also seen that things can change quickly if I am not alert and conscious of my thoughts and motivations.