Thanks to all for sound directives and great friendships.
Today was much, much better. Rested, my grandaughter and I spent a good part of the day planting flowers.
My AD did call and apologize and I also apologized. However, I am sticking to my guns about being around her. She stated she talked to someone with a year sobriety last night and that person is suppose to "help her get her life back together". I've heard all of this before and until some action takes place I know it is only words.
Ready: my grandaughter is 4 y/o, but I did apologize to her and talk a little about why I'm so mad at times and sad at times. I tried to explain that it's ok to be mad or sad, but we shouldn't hurt people with it. Hope she understood.
I also contacted a good friend (stay at home mom) and asked her to scout around for my babysitting needs.
All in all...I learned some valuable lessons yesterday, albeit hard ones.
Huggs to all