There are so many reasons to not drink... it takes reminding yourself each and every day that your goal just for that day is to not pick up the first one. Do whatever it takes to stay sober for that 24 hours..... I found that reading the posts here gave me the reminder I needed and the hope that if others could do it, so could I.
It always gets worse unless we stop the cycle. The good news is that each time you deny the urge, you'll get a little bit stronger. Hang in there!
