Thank you Reggie...all good advice. I'm very new in recovery (have only seen my therapist once) and haven't attended any AA meetings. This forum was the first step before AA but I'm going to look into meetings next week, because I really need someone to talk to. All of went on today didn't deter me from staying sober, it was just very disappointing and I feel very sad. I'm home reading a book and he's off to the bar. And, I'm not quite sure if it's his fault or mine.