Originally Posted by
Sdsurfn2011 
The guilt I have is crushing. When I'm drinking, I'm obviously not there for my son. Like right now, tonight.
When I'm sober, I try to make up for it, but it never eases the guilt.
My son is growing up with an alcoholic father. He's only 6.
I understand about AA, and I agree, but you can stay sober without it. I am getting ready to walk the dog, was up at 5:30AM and it feels great to be sober. You aren't missing anything. If you need additional support, PM me. I am heading to Miramar for a sales call at 8AM, then up to Carlsbad for a while.
I thought it was going to be so tough when I started this journey, and one of the roadblocks was I wasn't going to do AA. Come to find out AA isn't the only way and it has made the process easier and enjoyable.