Thank you for sharing your letter. I could have written it myself. The saddest part I think for me is that if I sent that letter, the A couldn't have the ability to even feel compassion or empathy for me because he was always too busy feeling sorry for himself. And his feelings always counted more than my feelings, well in his mind.
You will make it. Even if it's a harder road. You will succeed and find yourself once again. I think you might have already.
Peace,
Jen