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Im not sure I believe in sobriety enough to make the daily decision to abstain.
that was always my problem - my old life was chaotic, it was difficult...it was often no life at all.
But I knew the parameters. It was familiar to me.
Sobriety was a largely unknown concept - and the few times I'd tried it (longest stint 8 weeks) I hated every second of it.
There was no fun hanging around the old gang and just not drinking.
But eventually for me it was quit or die.
I had to try sobriety - so I thought I'd make the best of it.
When my misgivings got the better of me, or my faith in this new life failed me, I kept thinking of everyone here who told me this was the right thing to do....and gradually I got some sober time up.
I found my life, and my recovery, was very much what I made it.
It took time and effort but I found I enjoyed my new life - my perspective cleared after a while, I found a new drive and enthusiasm and I actually actively started to make a new life for myself, not just living the old one without booze.
I found to my surprise I was actually happy for the first time in living memory.
It was the best decision I ever made Luke.
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