Hi luke - welcome back!
Im not sure I believe in sobriety enough to make the daily decision to abstain.
Something I noticed about getting sober: When I was actively drinking, it was hard to imagine a life without alcohol and harder still to imagine that I could actually accomplish it. I was afraid I'd fail, and afraid I'd succeed..... if you get what I'm saying.
Once I'd been sober for some time, though, I began to actually desire a sober life. In other words, I had to live sober for a while to be able to appreciate it and now I look back and realize I was sicker than I thought. So the confidence, good feeling, and other rewards come as sobriety progresses, not before.
Start with day 1 and don't think about day 2 until it gets here. And don't even try to do it without support - (this forum, AA, or other recovery program).
I'm glad you've made this decision - if we can do it, so can you!
