Hey wolf...
Yeah I think most of us have felt like that. I wanted alcohol to let loose, be funny and enjoy myself. Even when I was home alone. To do things around the house, and just go outside and play with the dogs. Wanted to drink. I thought I'd never be able to enjoy things sober.
It just takes time. I wouldn't want to go back to that. I enjoy life more now then when I needed that crutch.
Give it time. You can get there.
A lot of us would love it if we could have a few and relax. Some of us can't. I can't, and I'm guessin you can't. Those few will turn into a lot, everyday, and we'll be right back there.
Fair or not, we're not like other people.