trouble having fun
I ended up relapsing last night. I didn't do anything crazy or blackout, so i'm not feeling too horrible about it, but I feel like I can't go out and be a normal 22 year old unless I drink. I have gotten a lot better,I don't drink alone anymore or anything like that. It is only when I go out I have this problem. I feel like I can't relax and let loose unless I'm drinking. I hate knowing that I can't enjoy things without being messed up on something. Does anyone else have this problem...just feeling like you have all of these walls that you can't get past unless you are drinking?? It is really bothering me, and I don't know how to fix it.