yeah...substituting one for another was a pattern for me when I was still using my blame-thrower, too!
I was torching various people, places and things until I knew I was done.
I found out treatment with a counselor is a bit different from 12 step fellowship traditions. My treatment counselor suggested I go to meetings until I wanted to....then to do what I want.
The best thing I remember learning, and also the most simple, from my IOP was this:
1) Don't use
2) Pay attention
I went to meetings, and kept going back.
I got a sponsor, I worked the steps and have come to an understanding of the traditions.
Today I have recovery.
Today we can help you stay clean if you want to.
Welcome!