Hell yes I can relate. My drinking pattern was basically ever other day. I would drink a ton, then spend the next day hungover, then ramp up to drink the following day. At the end of my drinking there were times when I was so hungover that even the 2nd day after I drank I felt like crap. I would typically make a decision to "not drink" sometime that afternoon. I would then get VERY anxious about not drinking that night. Sometimes I'd end up drinking at like 10pm just to calm the nerves....
I'm so grateful that I no longer have to live in that self imposed prison. I no longer have to drink. For me, I had to find a program of recovery that allowed me to not drink and be happy. It's available for us all, we just have to work for it! Best of luck to you!