Hey, I am finally feeling grounded again after a day of emotional chaos. I spoke on the phone to my sister and she sounded worse than ever. Very hopeless, narcissistic, and depressed. She is convinced that her experience of depression is unique and no one else has ever felt this way. She sounded particularly distraught about her feelings of wanting to die and was terrified that this is uncommon. To help soothe her I shared a feeling/thought I'd experienced recently (related to my recent breakup and not anything with malice). Her response? "That's awful. I don't even have it in me to think something like that. I could never even think something like that." I cried for about 4 hours straight after that. It was so similar to many relationships in my life, where out of a desire to help I have made myself vulnerable and then been attacked. Anyway, despite her current situation, my sis has been added to my no contact list and I will listen closer to my need for boundaries.