Thank you EVERYONE! It's nice to have your support and to know that I'm not alone here.
I understand that AA works for a lot of people, but refuse to accept that it's "the only way". People quit smoking cigarettes every day without CA, don't they?
What I mean to say is that I appreciate those weighing in who have had success outside AA especially.
Endzoner, I appreciate the thought, though this is a brand new screenname, so you may be wondering what became of someone other than me. I am what's become of Blake'sTyger. That's the old name.
I drink just about every night. I'm going to start tonight by somehow refusing to give in to craving. Falling asleep is very hard for me, but I am determined not to drink just for today and tonight...for now.
Thanks again for the support everyone. I hope to be a supportive voice for all of you too as I slowly make my way back to health.
Dave