AnodyneShift

here goes everything and nothing

I'm in love with someone who wants me to change. More importantly, I want me to change.

I'm a functional alcoholic, but know I could function much, much better.

I drink at night as a way to relax, heal the day and fall asleep. I have no illusions around the fact that I am addicted to alcohol.

I was on these boards for about a year and a half, I think, under a different name.

I drank tonight. Not sheets to the wind, but certainly not sober.

I tried AA for three years, and while I know it's effective for some, I'm wondering about success stories outside of AA.

I'm a smart cat, but I'm also very much in need of help.

Looking to start again,

Dave