welcome Kevin and congratulations on 30 days,
at 30 days l was an absolute emotional mess, l don't know your situation but my drinking had caused a lot of damage to my family. l felt ashamed and did everything l could to make home life as "normal" as possible. But having said that l also attended AA meetings x3 a week and attended outpatient groups because my recovery had to come first. lf l was not sober l was no good to anybody, especially myself.
Looking forward to reading update posts.
Though no-one can go back and make a new start,
anyone can start from today and make a new ending.
Carl Bard.