You would be surprised at the amount of time I spend alone in the bedroom, reading or watching TV and he is downstairs with a bottle his favorite Russian beverage. I try hard not to interact with him, but he will come upstairs and harrass me anyway. I miss having conversations with the sober part of him and he can be acting ok one minute and then cursing me out the next. I'm looking for an apartment I can afford on my set income but my area is pricey and it's next to impossible to find anything. It kills me that I would have to actually move out after 20 years because of his behavior and he says he doesn't want me to go, but is unwilling or unable to change so something has to give. I am 64 y/o and don't fancy the idea of getting an apartment that I can barely afford and be at the whim of a landlord who could raise the rent and I would be in the same situation again, looking for another hole- in- the -wall in which to live. It's his house, so I'm the one who must leave.