thanks everyone
im still greiving my dad, but its getting better, one day is good and another might be wow terrible. I know I cant change my ex but I hate to walk away. he gave it up before he can again, guess I dont mean anything or as much as I usto. I asked him today if he would do aa with me, took him 15min to answer, he said no. im crushed, am I to walk away from him forever now?