Kia I was wondering the same thing as Findingpeace.
I guess I was just wondering what you thought was going to happen when you both went to get more alcohol after dinner and back to the hotel. Maybe you are saying that your reaction to the sound of the beer can opening wasn't expected?
Have you thought about spending time on your own and girlfriends for awhile and getting through your issues before embarking on a new relationship?
Wishing you well.