When I went to my first alanon meeting all i did was cry...but someonne said the 3 c's we didn't cause we can't cure and we can't control it and i literally felt like a boulder had been removed from my chest...this incredible calm came over me and lasted about 4 days..they had me at hello...i was just like you about prayers..didn't know how,wasn't sure if i should...but i surrendered and did what alanon said to do..i had faith for once in my life and it has changed me to the core..welcome!