Day 25. Stopping drinking has been a good move. Wish i done it years ago. Definitely progressing but after living the life of a drifter/alcie/druggy fpr 16 years i dont think things will flip to normality over night though. just trying to carry on and hope that day by day i get a clue what to do with a sober life (having spent my entire adult life before that an addict and a pretty torrid time much of growing up [bullying isolation family issues etc - lord bless em].
parents showing their age a little now-has me worried.
want to be the superman they all deserve soon [which wont happen recovery will be slow is my best guess at the moment]. for me i guess there was nowhere else to go other than to get sober-probably would have ended up dead via suicide if i carried/carry on drinking so thats a no brainier.
im not suicidal so nobody panic although i was before i quit drink on jan 2
some nights i try to pull my socks up and work through my life, other nights i go to bed exhausted to escape facing .... still with each sober moment a light chinks in or something.
no longer living in shame