Welcome to the forum!
I hope you'll heed what's been said so far.
I think your first priority is to educate yourself.
About recovery.
About alcoholism.
About codependency.
I see several markers in your opening post
that are flags for what we are taught codependency is.
Make yourself an agreement with yourself
and that's to do nothing out of the ordinary
until you've read every stickie here
and in the alcoholism forums.
(that's those link looking thingies up at the top of this list that don't change)
Your bf is in a program of recovery.
You aren't.
That means - he's committed to grow and change
and do whatever it takes to remain sober.
that's real - permanent change if he does it completely.
So what about you?
I have a feeling that you're depending on recovery to turn him into who you really want.
And I think
with some recovery of your own
dealing with those expectations
I think you might find
yourself in a far more realistic place
to be deciding on bringing another being into
this already troubled world.
Were I to be making that decision
it would be based on my self-knowledge
as a competent parent
and my clear understanding of the reality
surrounding me.
Not because time is running out.
There's thousands of children already here in this world
that are daily cast aside and abandonded
who are in need of a true parent.
I hope you'll stick around and continue to post and make friends here
And I hope you'll make the committment to self-education
and to recovery-education
before making such a life changing radical permanent decision.
Welcome to SR!