Man sorry to hear about what they have done to you. I wish I was allowed to talk to you properly about what I think regarding this subject. What I will say is that any doctor who said this to me:
But he doesn’t think so. “People like you, who spend their time on those websites, are just craving the drug,” he said. “Their symptoms are simply your mind wanting a pill to solve their problems. .”
would be left in the rear view mirror in seconds.
As for drinking, alcohol and benzos work on the exact same GABA receptor (this is not medical advice nor speculation, simple scientific fact just as the earth goes round the sun), so drinking might alleviate the benzo WD symptoms, it might exacerbate them too. Ashton claims a few drinks months into recovery is harmless, I know people who have had setbacks from a couple of beers. Personally I wouldn't risk it.
If you would like to talk in depth about benzos, please feel free to PM me.
MHH