unmanageability
I've just finished my 8th step, but wanted to revisit this. I need to be reminded of it sometimes:
no self-respect
couldn't supervise my son
constantly embarrassing myself
completely delusional
failed out of school
4 CPS cases
had to wean my son
had to put my son in daycare
no extra spending money
constantly overdosing
unemployable
no sex life (and I'm married)
forgetting to feed the dog
couldn't manage the bank account
lost touch with friends
always sick
got no sleep
malnutrition
self-pity
shame
couldn't read books
scared friends/family
couldn't enjoy music
utterly useless
driving high
missing appointments
throwing up
passing out
putting my son in danger
no social life
scaring the neighbors
roaming aimlessly
no real empathy
rehab
had to hide from authorities
lying
cheating
stealing
desperation
hospital bills
hopelessness
lost all trust
couldn't paint
poor decision-making
health problems
making inappropriate emails/phone calls
couldn't cook
no creativity
in my own little world
lost and confused
dying