SpeedyJason...it seems to me that you have to explore why you don't trust and reconcile those feelings. I think codependents and ACOA need to step outside of the alcoholic tornado and see who we are. I mean who we really are. I only know myself in the tornado. I don't know myself in "calm" weather. So, I need to figure that out. I am going to therapy and reconciling all of the old crap I have been carrying around with me forever. I am going to get away from people that are alcoholics and work on my codependency. That's it for now! I haven't gotten any further. Is it going to be hard? Absolutely. Will it be worth it? Definitely.