(((Alma))) - I'm SO glad you got to a meeting, and it was a good one. Back when I went (I went to AA, as there were more meetings available), I took a while to get a sponsor. They told me to find someone who "had what I wanted". I was still an RN, found a nurse who was a recovering alcoholic, but worked in the local treatment center, so she was very familiar with opiates (what I was abusing back then).
I wish I'd listened to her and the rest of the old-timers who told me to stay away from the guy I hooked up with. Just a couple weeks shy of 6 months, I was smoking crack...something I'd been terrified of. After going where THAT took me, I am now aware that my recovery is the most important thing in my life...not a man, not a job, not a substance. It's recovery, where I've finally found the most peace I've had in my life, in a long, long time. Doesn't mean there haven't been ROUGH times, but recovery, and my recovery friends have gotten me through everything. That....is priceless.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy