Tuffgirl,
when you took those tests on the internet, what did they say?
Ha ha - that I am being a dumb-butt by believing I am the one with the problem! I don't have any of the 'symptoms' these tests look for. Intellectually I know I am buying into my AH's BS. In my heart I still worry. Plus, I wonder if I will develop the hypersensitivity to others' drinking and think everyone is an alcoholic! Oh - the psychological games that are played. It's easy to internalize all of that over time; much harder to let it go afterwards.