That's where I was, initially, after leaving, and that's sort of where I would like to end up again. Not because I want to drink -- I don't really care about that -- but because the way I'm feeling now, it's like I'm still allowing his alcoholism to determine how I live my life, if that makes sense? It's not the alcohol I'm missing, it's feeling like I make my own choices independently of him. I don't know if I can explain it?
I think you have something here.
yes his alcoholism is still affecting the way you live.
it will take awhile to make choices with out the spector of alcoholism tainting everything.
but, you are aware and working on it.
yep.
I like the way you explained that. Makes perfect sense to me.
Beth