I love my nana...she was my only safe haven as a little girl.
I need to get the Big Red Book. I am completely floored. I guess I never realized that my mother's "dry" alcoholism (now that I know what that is) made me who I am. I feel like I have been punched in the stomach and at the same time I am crying tears of relief because I think I have figured out what is wrong with me. I am so angry with her even though it is not really her fault. I was just a little girl. I was doomed from the beginning to be a codependent woman with dysfunctional relationships. Gosh that pisses me off. If only I had known this years ago, I could have saved myself a bunch of heart ache and pain.
Ok so now what? Read the Big Red Book? Therapy? How do I fix me? There are no meetings for ACA in my area.