Hi BL and welcome.
I'm sorry you're in the place you're in but I'm glad that you found SR. There are many wonderful folks who'll be chiming in very soon.
It's great that you're attending Al-Anon meetings. I've found the skills I've learned in those rooms be so valuable. They say that Al-Anon teaches you the skills you need to live with your alcoholic weather they're drinking or not.
In your case, she's not drinking. But you still need to take care of you.
You are not alone!
