I love it - you ARE an inspiration! Very courageous! Hang in there. Some days its easy to go back into the old thinking. I just stumbled tonight - caught myself buying into the same old crap - but then something happened, something snapped (or maybe clicked, I don't know how to describe it) and I suddenly exclaimed "I just wasted 45 minutes of oxygen!" and ran out the door, leaving him standing there with mouth wide open. Phew - months ago I would have gone on arguing and justifying for hours.
My Mom always says you never know when you've had enough until you know when you've had MORE than enough!